Tuesday, August 26, 2008

The Power of Positive Thinking

One of my cousins, an R.N., had sent me this and I wanted to share it here for those who may find some comfort in learning more about the power of positive thinking...


1. We all work with one infinite power

2. The Secret is the Law of Attraction (LOA)

3. Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting

4. We are like magnets - like attract like. You become AND attract what you think

5. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy

6. People think about what they don't want and attract more of the same

7. Thought = creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions (good or bad) that speeds the creation

8. You attract your dominant thoughts

9. Those who speak most of illness have illness, those who speak most of prosperity have it..etc..

10. It's not 'wishful' thinking.

11. You can't have a universe without the mind entering into it

12. Choose your thoughts carefully .. you are a masterpiece of your life

13. It's OK that thoughts don't manifest into reality immediately (if we saw a picture of an elephant and it instantly appeared, that would be too soon)

14. EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted .. accept that fact . it's true.

15. Your thoughts cause your feelings

16. We don't need to complicate all the 'reasons' behind our emotions. It's much simpler than that.
Two categories .. good feelings, bad feelings.

17. Thoughts that bring about good feelings mean you are on the right track.
Thoughts that bring about bad feelings means you are not on the right track.

18. Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming

19. You get exactly what you are FEELING

20. Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances

21. You can begin feeling whatever you want (even if it's not there).. the universe will correspond to the nature of your song

22. What you focus on with your thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience

23. What you think and what you feel and what actually manifests is ALWAYS a match - no exception

24. Shift your awareness

25. 'You create your own universe as you go along' Winston Churchill

26. It's important to feel good ( ( ( (((good))) ) ) )

27. You can change your emotion immediately .. by thinking of something joyful, or singing a song, or remembering a happy experience

28. When you get the hang of this, before you know it you will KNOW you are the creator

29. Life can and should be phenomenal .. and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction

30. Universe will re-arrange itself accordingly

31. Start by using this sentence for all of your wants: 'I'm so happy and grateful now that.... '

32. You don't need to know HOW the universe is going to rearrange itself

33. LOA is simply figuring out for yourself what will generate the positive feelings of having it NOW

34. You might get an inspired thought or idea to help you move towards what you want faster

35. The universe likes SPEED. Don't delay, don't second-guess, don't doubt..

36. When the opportunity or impulse is there .. ACT

37. You will attract everything you require - money, people, connections.. PAY ATTENTION to what's being set in front of you

38. You can start with nothing .. and out of nothing or no way - a WAY will be provided.

39. HOW LONG??? No rules on time .. the more aligned you are with positive feelings the quicker things happen

40. Size is nothing to the universe (unlimited abundance if that's what you wish) We make the rules on size and time

41. No rules according to the universe .. you provide the feelings of having it now and the universe will respond

42. Most people offer the majority of their thought in response to what they are observing (bills in the mail, being late, having bad luck...etc..)

43. You have to find a different approach to what is through a different vantage point

44. 'All that we are is a result of what we have thought' - Buddha

45. What can you do right now to turn your life around?? Gratitude

46. Gratitude will bring more into our lives

Thursday, August 21, 2008

25% or 1/4 Mark

I had a good day today at the chemo clinic. They examined me and went over my bloodwork pathology and told me that I don't need to come in next week.

They flushed the mediport with saline and a heparin block, then dis-connected me from my portable infusion pump and took the needle of the port. This is one of the greatest feelings during my chemo journey!

I was told that everything is looking good to continue treatments in two weeks. I went to book my next cycle and it happened to be September 2nd, the day after Labor Day and completely booked, so I had to go with September 3rd, 4th and 5th. This will be a Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, but I got all three day's appointments at 8:40am.

The nurse practitioner told me to enjoy the fine cooler weather and by Sunday, the neuropathy and metallic taste should be weak enough to be able to enjoy an ice cream or a cold beer. Hmmmm ???

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Smooth sailing again...

I had my second treatment today of cycle 3 and all went well. My oncologist asked me if I've noticed my face being red (as it was today) and I told him that it always seemed to have a "sunburned" look for the first few days after the Oxaliplatin. He said that we'll just keep an eye on it.

While there in the infusion room, I met another guy about my age who is finishing his 12th cycle this week. He was also a stage III colon cancer patient. He is so happy to have made it and told me that week 10-12 were "very trying" but he could see the light at the end of the tunnel and he strived to make the last 3 cycles and finally made it. He said that the neuropathy was pretty intense in his feet, but not so much his fingers. I wished him well. He finished his treatment before mine and left. It was good to have someone to talk to that I could relate to for a short time today while being infused.

It's not a big deal though, I read or listen to mp3's, or sometimes just close my eyes and rest. It is an extremely busy clinic, but all of the doctors and nurses are very good to work with and offer advice and answer any questions that anyone has.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Back on Track :)

I was able to resume my chemotherapy treatments today. My bloodwork was "in range" and I've started my 3rd cycle. I was extremely happy to hear the news from my oncologist.

I didn't even feel any pain when the oncology nurse put *the needle* in my port today either. Maybe I was so happy to be back on track that I put a mental block around it?

Anyway, right now my fingers are tingling pretty good and this is taking way more time to type than usual so I'm keeping it short.

No nausea, just neuropathy and fatigue.

I have my portable pump of 5-FU infusing me now until I go back tomorrow. I like when the first day of each cycle is done. This is the day I get the oxaliplatin along with others. The other chemo meds seem very tolerable so far. Won't need the Oxal again now for two weeks :)

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Treatments postponed until next week

I went in this morning and my platelet count had come up some, but my white blood cell count was down, so the on-call oncologist requested some tests (more bloodwork) to see if there was an underlying cause.

The doctor said that usually they see these kind of numbers after a patient's 5th or 6th cycle and it is unusual to see after only two cycles. So, he is recommending to my oncologist (who is away this week) that the chemo dosage be dropped to 80% and will have the "extra" test results back next week as well.

I had a hunch that it would be postponed and didn't even put on any of the numbing cream (lidocaine).
So, I'll finish this week with the antibiotic for the infection and hope for a better week, next week.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Treatment Delayed today :(

I wasn't able to continue treatment/infusions to day because of
1.(infection/blood ozzing from incision above port) and
2.(platelet count was low).

They sent me back to the interventional radiologist group and the doc cleaned, sutured and dressed the infected/open incision area. Only stings a little bit.

So, I go back tomorrow morning for bloodwork and see if they can proceed with the treatment.

I knew it was too good to be true, I had finally got an early appt for chemo today and wasn't able to get the infusions. The first day of the folfox treatment is the longest and I was hoping to get in and out by around noon time. Oh well, I can only trust that my oncology team (and I say "team" because my oncologist is away this week and he runs the oncology dept/clinic) is making the best decisions for me.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Infection !

I'm still hoping that this won't prevent me from starting my 3rd cycle of chemo this week, but I woke up this morning with a moderate burning sensation in my chest. After getting up and looking, it appeared to be a bacterial-type infection of some type overlapping the area of my mediport incision and about the size of a quarter.

I called my oncology group and the on-call doctor called in a prescription of oral Dicloxacillin 250mg capsules. Dicloxacillin is indicated for the treatment of infections caused by susceptible bacteria.

I'll speak with my oncologist in the morning and see if he wants me to come in immediately to look at it or wait until I go there for my regular appointment on Tuesday morning at 8:30am. I'm really hoping that I won't need to re-schedule and prolong the treatment plan. I want to get this done by the end of the year,